and i have a new sewing machine.

and suddenly life is very busy again.

also, 20 doesn't feel any different than the past few years of my life. i am afraid i may not be maturing. though maybe thats not a bad thing. i am doing pretty well where i am.

that's all for now, so yeah.

i have no idea.

probably because i have been spending all my time online lurking craftster and waiting for my now ex boyfriend to talk to me on AIM.

but he's gone now, so maybe i will visit my renspace more.

i have to make myself a new outfit for Ojai in May. i have no idea what to make. i have a pirate hat started in red, so i think i iwill finish that and theme my outfit "red". it's a safe color for me because i can wear it really well and goes with lots of things.

now i just need to get fabric and a better sewing machine. hopefully the latter will come for my birthday. i asked for one from my parents, which in retrospect was a bad move. my dad has a tendancy to get me either the cheapest or easiest thing he could find and my mom has a tendancy to overdo things to the max. she has deided that nothing plastic or under $600 is a good machine, but she can't afford anything over $100 so she is angry with me about it all the time. she actually asked if i would liek to go to disney land instead. i said no. partially because disneyland would be way more expensive than a decent sewing machine, but mostly because disneyland is NOT a sewing machine and will not help me make things.

anyway, i will be 20 on March 31.

YAY FOR ME. one more year till i can drink! whoooo?

i have modified my hair to something that i actually like. after getting that terrible haircut in february i have hated my hair and everything about it, but now it is getting longer, and looks cute with bangs. also, it is blue, and not just blue, but blue liek the ocean. i feel like a mermaid, and i love it. 

 Next Step: septum piercing. though i has no moneys for that yet. 

still it's nice to sort of like how i look, and feel a little more comfortable in my skin.

:) 

...PIRATES.

and floggings. but now my behind is bruised. :(

also, thank you to everyone who put up with me these past two weekends. you are my heroes. <3 

EXCITED!

so i forgot i had this account....but now i remembered! 

 so i am posting a blog.

News: i am going to Ojai Pirate faire both weekends.

 also, September 19 is talk like a pirate day!

It's a piratey month.

I have been a little crazy and stressed lately, but a good dress-up and get away should be nice and will hopefully help.

 I suppose i will see many people at Lake Casitas in about a week. CAN'T WAIT. Come say hi to me, i will be with the Black Gryphon. 

YAY.