and i have a new sewing machine.

and suddenly life is very busy again.

also, 20 doesn't feel any different than the past few years of my life. i am afraid i may not be maturing. though maybe thats not a bad thing. i am doing pretty well where i am.

that's all for now, so yeah.

i have no idea.

probably because i have been spending all my time online lurking craftster and waiting for my now ex boyfriend to talk to me on AIM.

but he's gone now, so maybe i will visit my renspace more.

i have to make myself a new outfit for Ojai in May. i have no idea what to make. i have a pirate hat started in red, so i think i iwill finish that and theme my outfit "red". it's a safe color for me because i can wear it really well and goes with lots of things.

now i just need to get fabric and a better sewing machine. hopefully the latter will come for my birthday. i asked for one from my parents, which in retrospect was a bad move. my dad has a tendancy to get me either the cheapest or easiest thing he could find and my mom has a tendancy to overdo things to the max. she has deided that nothing plastic or under $600 is a good machine, but she can't afford anything over $100 so she is angry with me about it all the time. she actually asked if i would liek to go to disney land instead. i said no. partially because disneyland would be way more expensive than a decent sewing machine, but mostly because disneyland is NOT a sewing machine and will not help me make things.

anyway, i will be 20 on March 31.

YAY FOR ME. one more year till i can drink! whoooo?